another day

Today is the day the Lord has made,Bill is resting right now which is good.He stays up a lot at night.
I realize what a wonderful husband I have and almost lost. Every morning without fail at 6am he would arrive here with a dunkin donuts coffee.We would then read and pray,Now I am drinking K-cup coffee that tastes like cigarette ashes. I am so missing Bill I ache to just have his strong protective loving company.
He often after we prayed would share his next idea for business or church ministry.We would worship God or pray He was so excited about life whatever he did He would focus.he was so passionate about God about sports ,about people the community.He had strong opinions about politics.
I am blessed that I have Jesus in this place I am trusting he will restore. I am lonely at times
everything stopped at once.My husband was such a friend to others but where is everyone now?
We have one pastor who has been there from the beginning and still checks us now.Even though we have nothing to bring to the table but brokenness and pain.
My husband has poured his life into so many people, I am not bitter I am amazed ,the bible says people fail but God never fails.I still love people I think they don't know what to do .Because I sure don't.
The one thing I do know that the Lord has made this day and will uphold us whatever the days hold.